Listen. Book Expo America (BEA) is an experience. If you ever have the opportunity to go, you should. I went in 2013 for the first time, which was overwhelming and awesome. You just can’t imagine how big it is, and they give you free books. What more could you possibly want in life?
This year, I went as an author. I went to a rooftop party where they served cupcakes with little pictures of my book on top. I handed out buttons with sayings from my book on them. I spoke to people who knew who I was and were excited about my book. There were people lined up to have me sign an advanced copy of Between for them.
WHAT IS MY LIFE RIGHT NOW?
Knowing that people are reading my book right now is a weird feeling. I’ve always been most excited about this part of the process. I want readers. I want people to know Seth and Charlie. I want to know what they love and what they don’t love. It’s also completely terrifying, you know? I have no control what happens at this point. The book is finished. People are reading it. I can’t control how readers respond to it. I can’t change anything now. I just spent years creating this story, and now it’s out there and it will mean something different to every single person that reads it.
I’m sure there will be people who see things in it that I didn’t even realize were there. I hope some readers connect with the story and the characters. I hope they think Charlie is funny and Seth is endearing. I hope they open that front cover and see that amazing map and I hope they daydream about what a world like Ellauria would be like.
Beyond that, I stood in lines to see my favorite authors and have them sign books for me. I got to spend time with my Kelsey, and several other of my favorite writer friends. I hugged Marieke for the first time. I went to the rooftop party with Dahlia, Danielle, and Heidi, and the Met with Andrea, Megan, and Carey, and had ice cream in bed with Kelsey.
All in all, it was the perfect first book signing. Sometimes I still can’t believe this is real.